Hanging out with the family Missing melissa though :( I miss my best friend/blood sister lol I’ve missed being here with everybody<3 its people like them who make me not want to leave….
Maybe I just shouldn’t talk about my feelings anymore
If its getting to a point where I’m being talked about and teased by the people I love, then maybe I just shouldn’t show affection towards him anymore….
I don’t get it…. If someone else is comming over, why won’t you even tell me? If its “none of my buisness because were not dating” Then what’s the point in lying? Unless you know for a fact ill be upset…. Is there a reason ill be upset?
If its just kenny and his friends, then why can’t I be here? You only don’t want me here, because another girl is comming over And you don’t want me knowing….
I feel like I can’t talk to anyone….because its like my feelings hurt them…. Or someone takes it the wrong way, and I get bit in the ass…. I’m not talking to people Id rather hurt myself than hurt the people I love….
That….I don’t want to go to nicks funeral…. I don’t want to remember that he killed himself…. I want to remember him how he was….not how he is now…. I feel like shit that I don’t want to go…. I can’t even explain….how this is How this feels I don’t want to cry over him dying anymore…. I don’t want to sit there and look at one of my oldest friends body sitting in a casket Knowing hell be there forever…. I feel like the lowest peice of shit ever And maybe I am…. But I really just don’t want to go….